Okay, so maybe it hasn't been a month, but it seems like it has been. The past few weeks have been hard. Between roommate problems, financial stresses, class load, and heartbreak, it's been hard to be cheerful and happy.
I think one of my roommates and I officially are not speaking. I shake my head at the whole thing because my other two roommates and I all get along great. We all take from each other, but we all give back too. We work together on things and if we get mad at each other, we talk about it and work it out. With the one with whom I'm not speaking, it seems like I give and give and give but never get anything back. I tried talking to her about what's been bothering me, and granted I could have gone about it better, but even when I do try to talk to her kindly about what's going on, the wall, and the defenses go up, and nothing gets through. The only thing I get out out of her are angry comebacks and stinging comments. I tried to be nice about it this time, but I was so tired of dealing with it, and knowing how she was going to react, the patience did not last long.
I've been trying to find a job since getting back from LT. I really thought that it would not be that hard to get a job, especailly in a grocery store since I had deli experience, and I would have all these amazing references of people who I had worked with, but I did have a hard time. I applied all over Muncie, anywhere that had applications, and for weeks on one called me back, even after repeated follow-up calls from me. Finally I went around again, this time offering seasonal help. Lane Bryant finally called me back and offered me an interview. The interview went well, but they were in no hurry to call me back and hire me. After two weeks of hounding them about hiring me, they called me in to get me into the system, I asked when they would schedule me, and they said probably not until the day after thanksgiving. Grrrr.... so my financial woes are not over yet....
Classes are going well. It's stressful though because it's getting to the end of the year, and the work is piling up as far as final projects go. There is one class in particular, I'm not sure if we're going to have time for a final project. We should have started it two weeks ago, but we haven't even talked about it, and we have another assignment due at the beginning of december, which will leave us two weeks for a final project... Ahhhhhhh......
Last but certainly not least is the issue of heartbreak. So, there was this guy that I really REALLY liked that I met at LT. I wasn't attracted to him at first, just because I barely knew him. I'm not usually attracted to people right off the bat, but over time, I grow to like them. This is what happened with him. As I got to know him, I started to like him. REALLY LIKE him. The attraction grew for a while, then suddenly, I got over it. I didn't dislike him, I still thought of him as a friend, but I wasn't attracted to him for a while. After a few weeks though, the attraction came back, and it came back with a vengeance! It never died this time. About two month's after LT I told him that I liked him, hoping that he reciprocated those feelings. After a month of no feedback, I brought it up again. It turns out that he does not like me, and the next few days, even now, have been hard. I really thought that he did like me, but I guess not. I hope we can still be friends. I think we can anyway, I'll just need time.
Anyway, so that's my life in a nutshell. Prayers/words of encouragement would be appreciated! Let me know what you need prayer for too!
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