Something Heavenly

I think God may have been trying to tell me something on my way back to Muncie from Anderson.  Twice, within about 20 minutes, I heard this song on the radio...

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender

(Chorus)
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
To...

(Chorus)

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly

Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This is something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly
Something Heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out

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Over the past few weeks/month's, I've learned a lot about stuff that I thought I already knew.  Love and hate for example; I thought that neither one were emotions and that you could control them if you just tried hard enough.  Now I know it's not quite that simple.  Yes, there is some degree of choice to each, but there's also a degree of emotion.  It's not so easy to control either one when faced with such an emotional overload.

What I think God was trying to tell me while driving back to Muncie, is to let go to the love/hate maelstrom that's been raging inside me.  Knowing me, it will be hard to let it go, just because I tend to cling to emotions.  I'm not saying that I'm emo or anything, I just tend to be very apathetic about things, so when I do have an emotional response to something, I tend to cling to that emotion, that feeling, that presents itself so rarely.  More than that though, I just have a hard time letting go, letting God take control because I like to have control.  I don't mind advice and guidance, but I have a hard time just letting go of the reins and let someone else drive.

Anyway, I digress... sort of... So yeah, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm going to attempt to let go of what's been going on, and surrender.  I know I've always had a hard time with this in the past, and that will probably hold true now.  I don't really know what else to say, so please just be praying for me and let me know what you need prayer for as well!